Friday, April 30, 2010

Conversations (abridged)



12:31 AM J: if someone doesn't apologize, you shouldnt say "dont worry about something"
  
J: i could see you preemptively saying dont worry about it
 J: hahaha



  
J: oops...
12:36 AM J: ring fingers got mixed up
J: huh... that's funny
 J: if the ringfingers get confused kiss becomes kill

Friday, April 23, 2010

My new poster!

Ok, so last year I was all up in arms about buying a 2nd poster for my room. I even blogged about it (here).

FINALLY, FINALLY, FINALLY after wasting so much time on the interwebs and coming up with and then rejecting several DIY artsy ideas, I found a print I fell in love with.

After reading about 20x200.com at one of my favorite blogs (link here) I decided to give it a looksee.

I stumbled upon this image.
























And I fell in love. I can't say exactly why. I love the pink and green (theme of my room!) and I've always loved birch trees. I've also noticed that I am really into birch tree art (and by this I mean I've seen 2 pieces of art in the past 7 months with birch trees and I liked both of them a lot lot lot).

I know $200 is a lot on my meager student budget .... but since I returned those craptastic shoes below (and the color was a lot prettier than the picture) I figured I deserved this print. Also, it's ART!!! And it makes me oh-so-happy!!!

Thursday, April 22, 2010

NOT WORTH IT.


Source: Nordstrom

Bought these $300 shoes on sale for $198 at Nordstrom.com. Not worth it. You can see all the glue. And the heel position is not good so my center of balance is all off. Who wants to pay that much for shoddy craftmanship?

Sunday, April 18, 2010

Forgiveness. Or at least, Letting Go.

Source: Fan blog

I received an email on December 29th, 2009 from one of my closest college gal pals. She sent along this article/post from Daily Candy with the comment: "how i felt toward [REDACTED]"

There had been some "drama" several years ago with the (ex?) friend that she named. To be accurate, it occurred when we were still in college so about 2.5 to 3.5 years ago. Anyway, it hadn't occurred to me that even now, 3+ years after everything had happened, she still might have trouble getting her feelings out in words and letting it all go.

However, I had also been through/was still going through some unnecessary and unwanted drama in my own life. One of those situations when someone goes from Most Trusted Friend to Enemy of the State. Anyway, I've found that reading through while filling the blanks DOES have a calming effect and reproduced the letter below.

If you're harboring any ill will or negative feelings, I say give the "fill-in-the-blank" a go and see if it helps. As cliche and "Gossip Girl" as it (the letter's tone) seems, it's a useful tool in putting feelings/thoughts into words. Especially for those of you/us who are wont to hold things in. Also, all it is is a template. And it does a pretty decent job at that.

Highlights: Honesty (recognizes both the bad AND the good) and Tone (ends on a positive note)

Dear ___ [name of frenemy],

After reflecting on our ___ [Freudian term] relationship, I realized that you suck the energy out of me like ___ [2009 vampire protagonist]. My therapist told me to get everything off my ___ [body part], so here goes:

Truth is, I never liked going ___ [trendy retro leisure sport] with you. I’m not your personal ___ [pathetic reality TV sidekick]. And it’s no secret that you ___ [past-tense verb] my boyfriend. I’d ask if you were on ___ [prescription drug], but I already know the answer, since you stole it from my ____ [aging relative].

Of course, there were magical times (guzzling whiskey cocktails at ___ [favorite NYC gastropub], charging clog boots at ___ [favorite indie boutique] on your mom’s credit card), but I want to move into 2010 as a healthy, ___ [positive emotion] person.

I do blame you for my ___ [sign of aging] but otherwise no hard feelings. Here’s to making 2010 as drama free as ___ [PBS documentary title].

Love,
___ [your name]

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

(Belated) New Year's Resolutions

Source: Quote-y blog
(unfortunately the results for a "new year's duck" Google image search turned up only cooked ducks...)

Last year I had a New Year's "theme" rather than a resolution (that link is sub-par ... I mistakenly thought I had devoted a whole post to my New Year's Theme). This year it seems more appropriate to say I'm sporting a mixture of resolutions and maxims. I suppose if this year were to have a theme, it would be summed up by one of my favorite quotes:
Always behave like a duck: keep calm and unruffled on the surface, but paddle like hell underwater.
I only now just realized that this quote that I have loved forever is just a bastardized version of the Michael Caine quote from the picture above. I can't say which version I prefer. I do have a thing for consistency and first impressions. BUT the Michael Caine quote uses the word "dickens" in it - which the nerd in me is giddy over.

In any case, I suppose that is my theme for the year. To share more of a calm (refined?) and thoughtful aura with the world while working my tail off where it counts. To be fully honest, now that I look at it, it does seem like the same theme as last year in different words. Well, I could say it looks like I failed last year's theme. ORRR another way to look at is through the lens of: "If at first you don't succeed, try, try again." - Thomas H. Palmer

In the spirit of full disclosure, (and for my own record - dear readers, please feel free to hold me to my resolutions/maxims) allow me the indulgence of listing my New Year's resolutions/themes.

1. 말이쁘게 하기 (literally "to talk prettily" - but more in the sense of taking the edge off my biting sarcasm, brutal honesty, and judgmental proclamations/criticisms)

2. To be more patient

3. To be less judgmental/more open-minded/accepting of people who are different from me

4. To be less emotional/superlative

Don't worry. I'm not lobotomizing myself. I plan on being as gregarious and enthusiastic as ever. Just about more pleasant topics and excited in more positive ways. Well, I've got a full day ahead of me tomorrow. Off to bed now =)

And just because pictures of ducks are just so freaking cute (notsomuch in real life).
Source: Another blog





















Source: FreeFoto.com

Sunday, March 14, 2010

Reflection and Resurrection

First hit for "starting again" on Google images
Source: Blog on flying?

Another pretty random hit on Google images
Source: Dusty Groove

And this one just seemed even more random so I had to include it
Source: Amazon
(I love irrelevant but somewhat topical images for blog posts - perhaps I'll even devote a whole post to this topic)

It's official. I'm going to start blogging again. I can't promise that I'll do it very often. But I do want to make it more regular. I miss it. I really, really do. I miss writing. I miss being able to archive my thoughts. (Also, my dear friends L and K inspired and then complimented me into doing it).

In my last post, I said I wouldn't be back until I found my voice. Well, I have a voice. My "voice," my point of view, it's just me. I want my blog to be about me and it probably should be about me. After all, I'm the only thing I really know enough about to write on. After reading Tiffany's post over at I am Style-ish on whether or not her blog genuinely reflected her, I realized that what she said rang true with me (p.s. I LOVE LOVE LURV her blog - we are taste twins! Just head over there for a peek and you will see what I mean). I share her concerns for privacy and safety (not to the same extent - I'm nowhere near as web-popular as she is) but I also believe that everything (or at least nearly everything, I haven't had the time to actually go through and vet every post) I've posted does represent who I am. At least at the time that a particular post was written.

Following in that vein, I feel ready to resurrect my blog. Disclaimer: It IS going to be about me, my interests, and other things that happen to catch my fancy. Don't say I didn't warn you. If it happens to be cookies or an omelette one day, so be it. If it's my professor's view on copyright, so be it. If it happens to be super-gorgeous shoes or a satin bow headband, that's what I'll blog about. Pretty much anything that I would tell a stranger at a friend's house is fair game for post topics. Not too personal but definitely genuine. I think that's a fair line to draw. After all, you probably don't want to read about my pet peeve for the day or why friend X is the meanest person I know. But if I would feel comfortable sharing it with a stranger at a cocktail party, you get to read about it - regardless of how trite, or how monumental, the subject.

That being said, I am also going to disconnect my blogspot from my Facebook feed after this current post. I'll leave the link to my blog on my Facebook profile, so if you choose to continue reading you'll have that option. But I'm not going to shove my blog down your (digital Internet) throats.

I'm going to have some work to do before I'll be completely up and running again (creating and implementing a consistent set of "labels," a new format/coloring, etc.) but I'll do what I can to keep you entertained in the meantime. Just be patient with me.

One last caveat: the topics I will most LIKELY be blogging/writing/posting about (what IS the correct verb for doing this?):
- Me
- Food (that I like, eat, create, or am DYING to eat or create)
- Law school/career stuff
- Clothing and fashion
- Things that are pink and/or shiny
- Organizing
- Anything else that happens to be relevant in my life

Like I said, don't say I didn't warn you!

P.S. One of my goals for the "new" blog is user-friendliness. If you are so inclined please comment on formatting, font, layout, anything really and/or make suggestions.

Some starting points for discussion:
1. Do you like the pink background or should I revert back to white?
2. Do you prefer the blogs I list on the right to be listed alphabetically or by most recent post?
3. Do you care for the titles of the most recent posts or should I limit it to a bare list of blog names?

Saturday, February 13, 2010

writing?

Should I start blogging again?

I think I lost my voice last year.

While I originally started this blog when I was in Korea to keep my stateside family and friends updated, it quickly became my little ranting space. And I've waxed poetic about various reasons I stopped blogging (or at least publicly posting) when I started law school.

Unless I find a new point of view that I don't mind sharing, I'm not sure what I should do. I don't know that I'm comfortable keeping a general, "Here are my feelings and rants and random thoughts," blog anymore. Therefore, I feel that if I pick up blogging again I should have a clear perspective and slant. For example, my thoughts on being a law student. Or my makeshift approach to cooking for one. Or my take on the various articles and blogs I read.

In any case, I need to find a voice. It's been a couple years since I've wanted to write about my "boy" stories but don't want to be a SATC (Sex and the City) parody/wannabe. And mostly I've always wanted to write about them because they are so ridiculous or silly that I feel obligated to share them. Sometimes I think these INSANE things happen to me JUST SO I can share them with my friends ... there can be no other explanation for the parade of crazy in my life except to serve as fodder for others' amusement and entertainment. But so far I haven't shared those stories because I don't think my escapades would remain anonymous and I'm not ready for that (yet?).

So until I figure this out, this is just another teaser. =)

Sunday, September 27, 2009

Songs I've been feeling.

All I Have - Jennifer Lopez
Apologize - Timbaland
Beautiful Girls - Sean Kingston
Hot n Cold - Katy Perry
Right Round - Flo Rida
Goodbye, My Lover - James Blunt

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

sospecho.



i need to start being a nicer person. or find new friends...

me: i'm so mad at you! i was going to be nice to you all day today!
p: wait, why?
me: i made a resolution to be nice to you today!
p: umm, why?
me: wait, don't you like it when i'm nice to you?
p: i mean, you're nice. enough.
me: WHAT?!?!
p: i mean, it'd be nice if you were nicer, but also i'd be suspicious...

sadly, this is not the first time i've received that EXACT response. my niceness is often met with suspicion.

what does this say about me as a person?

i'm just trying to BE a nice person ... but if you all are suspicious, that does not help!

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

H1N1

ring ring

daddy: hello?
me: hi daddy! i'm thinking of coming home tomorrow
daddy: what's wrong? are you crying?
me: no no, my voice is gone from this weekend
daddy: YOU HAVE SI
me: what? no!
daddy: are you sure?
me: what? you're not going to let me come home?
daddy: you have SI, i'm not even gonna shake your hand
me: WHAT?!?! cmon! i'm not sick anywhere else, i just lost my voice from this weekend
daddy: ok. if you're sure.
me: yea, come get me tomorrow
daddy: talk to your mom

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Poster shopping

So I currently have ONE poster in my room. I bought it earlier this year when I came across the idea of a New Year's "theme."

The poster in my bedroom is this one:


Anyway, while renovating our house, reassigning and redecorating my bedroom at home, my parents and I decided to get rid of the two framed posters I had received as a much younger girl (one movie poster from Disney's Beauty and the Beast and one American Girl poster of Molly reading). They were going to throw them out with our spring cleaning and I told her to save the frames since I had been looking for a frame online for the poster I have right now.

So now I have to find a poster for the 2nd frame. Ideally it would also go in my apartment room next to my New Year's theme poster.

My whole room has a pastel pink and green theme. I have tulip art squares above my headboard. So I went to posters.com and the first thing on the homepage that matched my color scheme was this:


But I don't want a teenybopper girl on my wall. My friends give me a hard time as it is because I'm so into early childhood education. I can't help it that I'm on the same intellectual level as those 5-year-olds and we are BFF!!!

Anyway, so I continued searching on Posters.com.

These are my criteria:
1. Pink should be the color that ties it together
2. Fit the color scheme
3. Don't be too cliche (image, logo, overall tone)
4. Should brighten my day/make me smile
5. Should be something clever and out of the ordinary

Didn't think it would be too difficult...

Here are some pretty flower posters from the website, and while they pretty much fit all the criteria, they're all missing #5. These flowers are pretty but boring.

Flower 1


Flower 2


Flower 3


Flower 4


Then I found some alcohol posters I liked. But this also seems a bit cliche, not clever, and just too young for my room.
Sauvignon Blanc: a few too many colors and just doesn't go with the "flow" of my room


Cosmopolitan: I don't actually like or drink these


Absinthe: Feels like I'm trying too hard to be cool...


They just don't feel "me" enough. Here are a few others that are NICE but not quite "right."
Too monochrome


I don't like cats


Too bright/harsh


Here are my two favorites so far, although they aren't quite big enough to put in a frame by their lonesomes and I haven't yet contacted the creator (Etsy.com) to ask if they do bigger prints, I was thinking I could put both of them in one frame with a dried flower, a bit of lace or beading, and some other small pretty things to do a collage framed work.

NYC poster


Shopping


Let me know if you have any suggestions or have come across something you think I might like. Remember to keep my criteria in mind!

(Aren't you so glad I'm back? If only temporarily.) This is a preview of all the fun you/I/we'll have on my blog this summer =)

Thursday, April 2, 2009

For my birthday



Things I want/need:

pretty manila folders

more file folders
a thing to hold all my file folders
some more file folder ideas 1 2

now, you may be asking, why this obsession with file folders?
and i would answer, oh, you mean in addition to how i love to organize everything i can into file folders already? it's because i want to start a GTD tickler file system!!!
then you say: GTD TICKLER FILE SYSTEM??? why you're spouting more nonsense than usual!
and i say, check DIS out!

my amazon book list

another bookstand

DVDs
The Office
30 Rock
Arrested Development Season 3
Gossip Girl
Desperate Housewives

the other thing i really needed was a headband holder. i made my sister buy me this: PRETTY HOLDER

mostly, i love things that organize other things. A LOT.

i already got these orange flower shoes for easter which was probably the only thing i saw this season that i REALLY REALLY had to have.

this was the FIRST year that i didn't mention my birthday until less than a week away. normally my countdown starts like 2 months in advance. maybe i am growing up. or maybe law school is that miserable and time-consuming. all in all, this is probably my most MODEST bday wishlist ever.

43 file folders and a holder so i can start my tickler file system, please. =)

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

i know it was a bad day when ...

remember this?


i stand on the corner of your block, staring at the grocery store on the next block and deliberate for at least 2 minutes:

"do i want to be thin or do i want to eat cookies?"

then proceed to said grocery store, and purchase the following:

3 boxes of cookies (chocolate chip, english toffee crunch, swedish mint chocolate thins)
(because the look on the old lady's judgmental/disgusted face made me put the 4th box of cranberry walnut cookies back)
1 box of crackers (because my friend made me dip and you can't have dip w/o crackers)
3 snickers bars
2 kitkats
1 qt of milk

and the only reason i didn't buy m&ms was b/c there wasn't a dark chocolate peanut bag (in the BIG bag size)

ME, right now


THIS


+PLUS+

THIS


=EQUALS=

THIS (HOW IS THIS EVEN POSSIBLE?)

Thursday, February 5, 2009

moneys.

i keep meaning to update, and keep jotting down notes and then saving the posts as drafts.

but i haven't been able to get back around to actually fleshing out full posts.

and this time i was NOT lazy, school has been crazy busy and i've been super-exhausted but creepily uberproductive. and so i'm not gonna let the productive streak go to waste, right? so let's just say i've been riding the wave of productivity.

within this productivity, i forget how or where i came upon this article but it got me started on taking some control of my financial future. it has some simple no-brainers (plan ahead, have a marketable skill) but also told me i should get a roth ira.

SOOOOOOOO i started doing that research and after being intimidated into inaction, talked to a friend tonight w/considerably more money-savvy than me (considerably more savvy in the how to use it to make more of it - i'm clearly more savvy at how to use it to get rid of it) I JUST OPENED A TRADE-Y account (all the websites are like, etrade, scottrade, ameritrade, tradeking...) and i THINK i get to buy/start/put/open/begin/deposit a Roth IRA tomorrow when my deposit goes through!!!

Step 1 to retiring as a millionaire ACCOMPLISHED!!!

(haha, yes i am aware that I am in a very chipper mood about the market despite what AC360 tells me - and AC360 is the TROOF)

korea lookback (part 1?)

Originally drafted February 5, 2009.

For the Fulbright program, I was placed at an elementary school with
about 1700 students from grades 1 through 6. I actually taught every
single student at least once during my year there. I was chosen for
that school because they were running a pilot program to begin
teaching English in 1st and 2nd grade. Currently the English
curriculum in Korea begins in 3rd grade. My main responsibility was
preparing and teaching the 1st and 2nd graders. There were 7
homerooms per grade with about 40 students per homeroom. I had to
teach in all English to students with NO previous English experience
with the aid of the native Korean homeroom teacher, who also had
little to no previous English experience.

I was given a provisional textbook created by the school I believe in
the year prior to my arrival and had to use it. There were many
challenges and difficulties in this process. The textbooks had no
logical order in the way things were presented, there was little logic
to the themes of the chapters that I could deduce. This was not
really anyone's fault, as the textbooks were prepared by the same
homeroom teachers I was working with (no previous English
experience!). Nonetheless, I found ways to try and introduce basic
verbs and nouns along with classroom English that would make the
classes flow smoothly.

I had to learn to relax a little and go with the flow. I figured out
the best way to engage my students was to institute a bit of a routine
for the beginning of class (something they could recognize and use to
gain their bearings when we met each week) and also to work with a lot
of visual aids and hands on activities. I tried to keep the materials
relevant to their experiences and relate the lessons to things they
were familiar with (using Korean cartoon characters for a body parts
lesson/puzzle, using ancient Korean artifacts and traditional games
and instruments to learn the "what is this?" "it's a ...").

I also got a lot of experience in showmanship and presentations. We
held open demonstration classes at least once a month. My class was
taped for two different shows on Korea's English education TV station.
And near the end of my year we held a truly open demonstration class
for all the teachers and principals in the province. For several of
these classes (especially in the beginning) I often would come to
class to find that the AV stuff didn't work or they had considerately
taken DOWN my projector and taken it away for cleaning without
accounting for the fact that I would need it back FOR the open class.
It was definitely a year of interesting experiences, I learned to be
patient, creative, to deal with stressful situations, and to make the
best of every moment.

In the end, I think the biggest thing I learned that it wasn't about
me. There was so much of my year there that was about the students
and the school and I was just there to do what was necessary to help
them. I guess this is the thing that is really different from being a
student. In the big sense, students are necessary for college to
work. If NO one showed up for class or paid tuition, colleges would
become obsolete. But, if I personally didn't show up every day ready
to do my part, it really didn't have a big effect. But in Korea, I
guess it was my first real "job" and I realized that I really had to
step up to the plate and always be accountable and responsible and
what it was like to have other people count on me, to be part of a
team. And even if I didn't completely sign on with the things I had
to do or support, that's what being part of a team was. There was
compromise and negotiation and I finally learned what, "I scratch your
back and you scratch mine" applied to.

I guess that turned out to be a lot longer than I meant. I apologize,
but it was kindof therapeutic in a way. I haven't had to digest it
quite like that for someone yet. Other responsibilities in brief,
like I said I came into contact with EVERY student at the school at
least once. They really put me to work. In addition to the 14
regular 1st and 2nd grade classes each week, I taught 2 teacher
classes (1 general to all teachers and 1 intermediate level with the
English subject teachers). And I designed, created, taught an
afterschool English "camp" for 3 hours each week (rotating grades 3
thorugh 6) and also taught advanced language "club" type classes 2x a
week (3-4th grade and 5-6th grade). So, a lot of responsibility. I
came up with and designed all the materials and curricula for all of
the programs.

At Columbia, so far I have been taking a bit of a breather to get back
into the swing of things. Last semester I focused mainly on my
classes. This semester has been a bit busier just by the nature of
the programs I'm involved in. I'm on the Career Symposium committee
for the Columbia Society for International Law. We're puttng together
panel discussions for a 2 day event from attorneys who do
international law 2/18-19. I'm also involved witht the Public
Interest Law Foundation, which grants stipends for alls tudents who
work with nonprofit or governemnt organizations in the summer. I am
involved with their Annual Bid for Justice charity auction (held the
first week of March). The money from the auction helps fund the
summer student stipends and also grant requests from public interest
groups.

I am also a member of a student-faculty committee that is
working on the design for a new reading room in the law library.
there is currently a dearth of space, it's kindof similar to the
before (Perkins library) and after (Bostock) on a smaller scale. I
love libraries but hate the law library because it's the opposite of
everything i think a library should be (inspirational, beautiful, with
a sense of calm and yet energy) and so I applied to be on the reading
room committee to help the library realize its potential. (definitely more on this later...)

Friday, January 30, 2009

PEE MY PANTS!!!

THIS IS HOW I FEEL!!!! times a thousand!!!! click the picture to see the whole thing, i can't seem to get it to format so the whole thing fits (or maybe it's bc i'm on my tiny 5" laptop monitor).



ok first. AAAGHHH they changed the model and picture for my hat and how she's scary and significantly ugly!!!

ok but the real thing. OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG i'm sooooooooooooooo excited i could pee my pants!!!!

but i can't say anything yet bc i don't want to jinx it.

buuuuuuuuuuuuuuuut every step gets me more and more excited. i can't wait. I CAN NOT WAIT.

gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh why do i have a stupid moot court assignment due? that i haven't started???

ok, need to focus. hopefully will have super exciting update soon. =)

i love my life. don't ever let me forget it.

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Daddy's take on Obama's stimulus plan.

me : I'M NEVER GOING TO GET A JOBBBBBBBBBBB!!!!!!!!!
mommy: don't stress yourself out. what? if you don't get a summer job, you can always live here and we'll feed you
me: it's not about the money!!!! i need to have some amazing experience this summer!!!!
daddy: hey. if you don't have a job obama will give you one.
me: .............................
daddy: call his blackberry.

Thursday, January 22, 2009

sad hat.

i am so sad right now i can't even talk about it.

but i think since i am so sad, maybe i am allowed to buy this hat.



it's $59. which means i'll buy it in NJ to avoid the 8.5% or whatever it is NY sales tax.

=( will report on reasons i'm sad later ... after the wound has scabbed over a little.

O!

normally, i'm pretty apolitical - if i don't know a lot about something, i generally don't like to have an open opinion or discuss it b/c that seems kindof stupid. so unless i've read or researched a lot about a specific topic, i try not to verbalize a preference (or i try to stick in a disclaimer). many people pick sides based on limited knowledge and i'm not a fan of getting all passionate or heated over something i don't really know much about.

nonetheless, i heart this poster/image from this site. i THINK it means community organizer, but i just HEART HEART HEART ORGANIZING!!!! (remember, OCD anal). so yea, this one makes me smile.



in other news, my conlaw prof was saying the faculty took bets whilst watching the inauguration on how long before someone brought suit claiming that obama wasn't really the president yet since the oath was messed up. (dunno if she was joking). but apparently it's a good thing obama was a law prof and stuffed his OLC with other legal elite b/c apparently he was thinking the same thing and got the oath done good and right on the second go-round.

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Things I want to do

See the Holiday Trains at NY Botanical Gardens (before 1/11)

Go to a Knicks game (did you know they have Duhon now?!?!?)

See EQUUS (Harry Potter naked!!!)

See Speed the Plow (Jeremy Piven (aka Ari Gold, Super-Agent) on Broadway!)

Probably a few other things I can't think of right now

EDIT!!!!
Speed the Plow is no longer starring Jeremy Piven b/c of MERCURY POISONING?!?!?!?!

boooo. so perhaps cross that off my list =(